
Today was probably the most difficult day I have ever had to experience as a teacher. I knew, before I left the house, that today would be hard, but I wasn't quite prepared to tell 100 students that "it would be Ok."
Johana was a true blessing to her sixth grade peers. It was evident today that not only will she be deeply missed, but that she has left a very inspiring legacy that will live on in the hearts, minds, and memories of her friends and family members.
Today was an example of a time in life when even adults don't know exactly what to do. I have only really experienced this one other time in my life--September 11, 2001. Unlike 9/11, today we didn't know what to do because we are all in shock that someone so young and talented would be taken away from us.
Whenever I don't know how to handle something, I usually look for advice. That advice, more often than not, comes from my favorite author, C.S. Lewis.
Lewis knew grief all too well. His wife died and left him extremely broken. In dealing with his pain, he began to write about the loss in his books--these passages would soon become some of the most inspirational writings of the 20th Century.
One of the elements of grief that Lewis mentions is how fear often accompanies our pain. He said, "No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear." I saw fear in my students' eyes today. Fear of the unknown. Fear for Johana's parents. Fear of death itself.
While I can't say that I am completely without fear, I can say that I am consoled by the overwhelming support I saw from the PCMS family today. Ms. Kubos was doing what she does best--being a mother to everyone. The eighth grade students were filling their role as the big brothers and sisters of the campus. And, the seventh graders rallied together to grief as one. It was truly beautiful in an otherwise terrible situation.
As I end this post, my prayers go out to Johana's family and friends. I am deeply saddened by the tragic events and pray that God's comfort and support would be with her family in these difficult times.
Blittle